i can’t even count the times you’ve saved me from myself

i guess i just want to feel ok

one bad thing will happen 
and then it will snowball 
into a sequence of wretched happenings 
until you will feel as though 
it wouldn’t really bother you 
if you never woke up from your sleep 
and you will soon feel much like 
no one would take notice anyhow

Just because I’m plus-size, people, ALL the time, will dismiss the fact that I could actually be dating someone. 
I go out in public, even holding his fucking hand sometimes, and I’ll hear
“do you want any drinks for you and your friend?” or
“this girl’s friend is getting a tattoo, can you come in and do hers?”
and those are just two examples but this happens so often.
another thing that happens even MORE than that is being on a date with him, or out in public with him and having girls flirt with him or hit on him when i’m right the fuck next to him. 
i don’t even think they realize how insulting that is to me. 
he’s mine and how the hell would you feel if some bitch did that to you and your significant other?